But I Don’t Want to Forgive!

Most of us think we should forgive, but we may not want to do so because our ego has the belief that forgiving means they were right and I was wrong. It does not mean that. Ego, which is often wrong about things having to do with blame and shame, perceives that forgiving means

pardoning someone for their behavior. Forgiving is a way to make myself feel lighter. I forgive to feel freer! It’s a lot to carry around heaviness. I want to free up my mind for other things.

Anger and vengeance occupy too much space in our minds. Once we forgive, we don’t have to carry it around. In fact, once we get into the mindset of forgiving, we are in the process of trying on a new set of beliefs. My motivation is not necessarily making them feel less guilty or less awful. My motivation might mean that I am willing to welcome a new belief.

For example, if I believe they betrayed me, insulted me or hurt me in some way, I have to remember that they have no control over my feelings. I received it in such a way that hurt me because of the way I perceive they feel about me or the belief I have (on some level) about

myself. If someone called me a cockroach, that doesn’t make it true. It’s a horrible image to have, but it’s not true. I can make up all kinds of things. They are saying I’m dirty or that I’m unwanted or I am crawling around looking for an opportunity to eat.

What might be more uncomfortable is that someone else believes something awful about me because someone else said so. Again, if someone chooses to believe something untrue about me, that says more about them than it does about me. Ego needs the insult to have weight. Divine Mind knows that it has no weight. It has only the Power that I give it.

Sticks and stones are not welcome either. But games will never hurt me!

Namaste’,

Rev. Celeste